... as they cross the street, and I think, "Don't waste your life, do the things that YOU want to do."
I look at them... in the coffee shops, having their frappes, and I want to tell them to save their money for better things, bigger things.
I look at them... saying goodbye to their friends, after a day spent frivolously doing absolutely nothing, and inside I yell, "Time is precious! What did you accomplish today?"
I look at them... mucking around with the gang, free and single, I hope they don't stay that way too long. I hope having "freedom" isn't one of their goals.
I look at them... complaining about how awful their parents are and it takes all of my willpower NOT to go up to them and clobber them on their heads.
I look at them... fighting with each other - "Love and forgive, and build a life together... Or else realise the two of you aren't meant to be together and let go early so you can find someone who will be good for you!"
And then I look at myself and wish someone HAD said and done all those things when I was Them.
Perhaps then, maybe, I wouldn't be who I am now.
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[Addendum]
I'm feeling torn. Yes. Again. And reading blogs about TTWD and D/s and other relationship-involving topics hurts too much right now.
So I'm going to take a breather and probably won't be reading as much as I used to. Sure I'll glance... I doubt I could resist THAT. . . but it's likely I won't get through whole posts - I've tried. Still, my thoughts and wishes are with all of you.
Yeah I know what you mean, but at the same time, just because somebody told you doesn't necessarily mean you would have listened, you know?
ReplyDeleteI know... the odds would have been better tho, no?
DeleteI am not even sure on that. For me, it depends on who would have said it, why, and how. You know?
Deletei know. but i can't answer that. cos i didn't have someone like me who'd tell me all the stuff... i do it with the kids i teach. the teens who are closer to me - i don't give them advice. I tell them the stories of my life. and hope they learn a thing or two.
Deleteor at least know what they're in for if they should make the same choices i did.
That is what I hope to do with my daughters. I don't want them to think I am preaching or anything, but I will tell them things I could have avoided.
DeleteAs George Bernard Shaw said "youth is wasted on the young" and its true, sometimes though i think we have to have these experiences because its having them that mould us into the people we become.
ReplyDeleteSure i can look back and i have regrets, things i wish i had done differently but thats life unfortunatley we dont get a rehearsal.
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i'm not sure some of those experiences were worth the outcomes. but yes, we dont get a rehearsal. i hear you!
DeleteIt all seems so easy in hindsight, but you can only live life in the way that seems right at the time.
ReplyDeleteJ xx
i think in retrospect, i might have thought some of my choices were wrong - but I went ahead anyway, just because i wanted to be rebellious.
DeleteIf only we knew then what we know now...I like to think I would have done a few things differently back in the day. But then again, I know I learned from my mistakes and there really is value in that as well. I'm sorry you are torn right now (weren't we just saying hooray?!?) but I understand how it goes. Ups and downs, etc. I landed myself in big trouble this morning so I guess I burst my own bubble, eh? So take that breather and return soon Fondles. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteyes well, i foresee a time when i will never return. i hope this is not it. i'll still post, i can't NOT ramble on - just too many things in my head for me not to come here and unload.
DeleteWe are who we are because of our pasts. That is undeniable. The part you need to remember is that you make a difference to others - your blog - you sharing your life - has made a difference to me. It's sometimes painful - but without that we wouldn't be able to know happiness. We need it all. It sucks - I wish I could spare my children the mistakes, the pain, the hurt that comes in life - Hell - I wish I could spare myself. By by the same token, it is that which makes us stronger. You are a good person and you make a difference! Please remember that!
ReplyDeletethanks for saying my blog has made a difference to you. that's nice to know.
Deleteunfortunately it has also brought me to where i am now, and it's not a great place to be.
i'm being cryptic, i know, but suffice to say TTWD and DD and d/s and all the other initialisms are meant for the couple who NEVER has to break up.
cos the co-dependency is ridiculously strong.
I will miss your posts. My best to you.
ReplyDeleteHug,
Joey
thank you... but i think i will continue to post. i don't have anywhere else to unload this stuff. and i need a place to ramble... it's the reading that's leaving me in tears.
DeleteI have been worried about you the past couple days you have been too quiet....HUGS!!! We can't change the past, we can learn from it...go back to that first picture...read it again....it's still good advice no matter what your age.
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of hugs..
abby
thank you... but there are some things that you can't do once the time for it has passed, you know?
Deletethe world is fluid, windows open for a little while and then they close.
and then they open to other people who take those chances. And then they're no longer available to you.
I hurt for you.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate you.
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